It’s hard! I commiserate. Another big thing for me is that I just don’t like myself when I’m online dating. It triggers all my insecurities and worst traits in a way that is the opposite of how I am when I meet someone out and about, which makes me feel great and seems to trigger my best traits. It’s so weird! Something about the illusion of choice and having all these people on the equivalent of like grocery shelves, maybe? I get hung up on who I “should” be with rather than simply asking, “would I like to see this person again?” I can’t help but endow everyone with imaginary backstories or trying to fill in the blanks of their profiles. I’m always entirely wrong. lol Anyway, as I said, good luck. And ferreal, being a cricket widow is no joke!